Inside / Outside

When I was younger, I was unitiated and inside. I viewed the world as being outside, while I was insulated by family, church, friends, fellows at work. But there comes your turn where you have to ditch all this comfort and come to terms with 'who are you'? Whou are you, really? In order to gain this self knowledge, you gotta suffer. Feel pain you never thought possible. And help is there, but slow in the coming.When you come through, you realize you're now on the outside of what you used to be on the inside of. But you're also inside something that before you were outside of. You trade one interior for another, and magically, what used to be object becomes subject, and what used to be subject becomes object. It's like you've gone through a mirror world or something. The sun looks different, as does the moon, the planets and the stars and the earth and rivers and oceans and hills and pastures. You hear snippets like 'we belong to the earth, the earth does not belong to us' and it all makes sense. Further, you find cause and effect operating in such plain sight, that before you didn't even take notice of it. But now, you do. And it's all the most beautiful, gorgeous, wonderful affair you've ever encountered.

Awakening, I'd call it if I had to put a name on it.